For the last month, I had been at home recovering from a surgery. I have been stewing in my own laziness, so to speak. Sure, the time I have been off work was beyond my control, but let’s face it, we can easily get used to the laid back lifestyle.
From someone who used to be up at 5 am sharp, I became someone who sleeps till 11:00 am and stays up till 1:00 am. I have become someone who stays in bed for hours doing nothing and being totally ok with it.
My family has been a great help for me during this time, to the point where sometimes a messy room no longer bothers me. I had been asking people to get me water, coffee, and tea, but in all this time, I can’t tell you how much I have come to respect family, and I do strongly believe that we are nothing without it. After all, they are the people who are there for us when we are sick. The same applies to friends who have stood by me during this time.
But, sometimes I do stop myself from asking my family or friends to do stuff for me because I do know that eventually reality will kick in and I will have to go back to being a responsible adult at some point.
Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t exactly doing nothing this whole time. Far from it, instead I spent my time rediscovering the magic of movies and books. I spent my days watching one movie after the next, thanks to a friend of mine who got me two flash drives full of movies. The grand total of movies watched during my time off was 15, and more are yet to come. Other friends enriched my reading list with books, of which I finished three and I have five more to go.
Right now, my conclusion from being stuck in the make-believe world of fiction and cinema is that I have come to wish our lives are like movies. I have come to wish that we do live in world where a problem is solved in the span of two-hours or where in that short period of time massive life changing self discoveries are made. I also wish that our lives were like novels where in the equivalence of 300 to 400 pages a murder is solved, or two lovers find each other, or the sick get cured, or the dead are forgotten.
Even if the endings of movies or books are sad, still a major issue is resolved by the end credits or the acknowledgement page at most. But wait, I still didn’t lose my whole touch of reality just yet!
I do know that problems are not that easily resolved in the screen plays of our lives. In reality, our discoveries are only made after years of hard work, sometimes even therapy, or other interventions. But, for a month it is nice to interact in the world of make believe. If anything, movies and books are windows on how the world could be.
I also found myself more entertained than I thought I would be by my 11 year old niece. I am not sure if that is because my niece is entertaining or because my IQ fell significantly, but I would like to think that the girl does make for good company. I found myself having deep conversations with the pre-teen and watching shows like “Project Runway”, “Say Yes to the Dress”. , “Disaster Dates”, “Impractical Jokes” alongside other doses of TV silliness I wouldn’t have otherwise had time for.
However my time off is over today, in an hour from now I need to shower, get dressed, and go to work. I need to remember how to be a professional adult again, and to respond to emails, and sit in meetings, and to be responsible.
Don’t get me wrong, I am thrilled to be going back to my normal life, at most it means I am healthy enough again, and almost sickness free. In fact, I am excited about going back today with a totally new mentality, which you can read about in my previous post titled “The Choice“.
On this morning, I close the chapter of my life titled “sick” that has been with me for three months and today, I start a new chapter in my life called “Moving Towards Healthy Again”
I will let you know how that goes.
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